Accepted. Some people are excited. Some are sad. Me -- both.

But why did I start those PhD studies, after all? Now I remember one good reason: to be able to travel. How stupid. Of course this wasn't the one that made me begin it all, but still.
Tired of living and working in a place with so many lies. People study what they don't want to. People pretend one can study and not work when one is 23. People say -- ok, we'll try to give you leave for "family reasons", but if not, you can do it only for medical ones. Lies, or, as Ch. put ut, "puddles, puddles, puddles, puddles".

To dance.
To draw.
To travel.
To read Forster, Dickens, Chesterton.
Just a few things I would be able if I quit those pointless PhD studies.
So happy I'm back to dancing. Forgot it brought me so much pleasure. Literally can't wait for our next class!

How could I have overlooked the simple fact that I have read almost nothing GKCh wrote IN ENGLISH? I have the same amount of happiness waiting for me, or even more. Though a bit afraid Napoleon might be not as funny. Russian translation is superb, enjoy it so much. 

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One day I'll go to London and visit all the places from The Napoleon of Notting Hill. The Waterworks Tower:

(from https://rbkclocalstudies.wordpress.com/tag/campden-hill/)

Вот это светотень... Оттуда же.

Wordsworth edition: 3 novels, and in each I find something which was omitted in Russian. Or, vice versa -- something that wasn't here and which is in Russian.

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Did I ever dream about the theory of literature? Not really. And tonight I dreamt I was talking about GKCh. Feel the difference.

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. Research what you love. Made a mistake in my 1st year, not going to make the same one.

Сопротивляться силе инерции. То, что меня забросило на эту кафедру, еще не значит, что я должна там учиться. If I groan when I see Bakhtin's name, if I, let's be honest, prefer history of literature to theory of literature -- I should do it. I should be bold. My first dark lipstick was called: be bold.
Припадок недовольства ситуацией -- после теоретического семинара. Да не хочу я быть теоретиком лит-ры!